love letter to Allah..

Good thing does not really knock people twice…

Same goes to the ‘hidayah’….

When I came here…

I always think of becoming a new people..

With the aiming of just to have a mate..

I mean..a husband..

But after staying in this 'home'…

I realize…how I should not really change ‘totally’ from what I had before..

I cannot leave my tarbiah behind..

It should actually be the front of all…

I felt so ashamed as I am already got the tarbiah for 2 years..

But yet…I do not become a better person at all…

Last night, when sis y said that she was so sad…

As she hoping a love from a man instead of devoting her heart to Allah..

I was almost burst out of tears as I felt what I do now is just the same as her before…

How pity I am….how so desperate I am….

To really find someone’s love..

But Allah always does not leave me behind…

He always give me ‘hidayah’..

Not just once…but many times…

He keeps loving me until now…

He always knock my heart every time my ‘iman’ is unstable…

Hadith 42…

Where Rasullullah said..

Allah always forgive a man’s sin under any circumstances..

Accept if they are ‘mesyirrikkan’ Allah….

I will remember the hadith…always!!!

I love You, Allah..(^_^)

cita bru smpai cnie..

Ok…here comes the new chapter of me…

the new life with the new spirit…I guess..

Hopefully my life will not be as cold as the weather…

 changing from time to time..

But let it be much more fun and warm…

so that people around can feel the warmness in me..^^

after coming here for about 2 weeks…

I finally realize how dilly-dally I am..

There still much more to be learnt but yet I don’t do it at all..

Perhaps there will be an ‘angel’ coming in front of me…

 teach all things that I have to know so that I will not be such a dull girl…with a dull brain..hahaha

talk about the past..I know…there are many things that have listed in my mind now..

the list that I really want it to become true…hopefully…IA

in this case…I will let Him to guide me all the way…

but still…..i have to give my very best…to achieve them…

the road is getting more tougher..more challenging than before..

so…it’s better for me to be prepared…mentally and physically…

u can do it!!

Let the world see…how precious u are girl!!

s-a-b-a-r

emo, rsa nk marah....n yg sewaktu dgnnya.....

rsa nya semua org mst ad perasaan tue...

rsa nk marah....bt muka merah pdam n berapi-api...pastue....semboq kt org cm nie..

"argh!!!!!!aku nk mrah hg....!!"

tpi....rsanya.....at da same time...

suma org jgk ad satu perasaan yg sgt 'cooooool' iaitu....SABAr....kan...kan

aku tau....bkn suma org ble control their anger...

lebih2 lg bab yg mmg kta x suka...

mmg setan nie suka nk gletek2 kta utk jdi 'hulk hogan'

ble dia da ble pujuk...mst dia enjoy larh bt party..urhhh!

tpi...kta jgk ad iman...

sebut psal iman....dri aku sndiri pon msh t'kapai-kapai..

cma klu nk tgu iman tue dah tip-top bru nk bt benda2 baek...ssh ar..

sbb benda tue kna pupuk...

teringat kisah nabi S.A.W..

baginda pernah selalu kna maki dengan sorg org tua+buta nie..

tpi...baginda x pnah mrah kt dia pon...

tiap2 ari nabi suapkan mknan kt dia..

dan tiap2 jgk, org tua tue mst ktuk2 nabi...

time nabi suapkan makanan kt dia...

smpaila satu ari...bla nabi dah wafat,

ad org laen yg ganti nabi kasi mkn kt org tua tue..

tpi...org tue tau org laen yg suapkann dia...

sbb cra suapan tue x sma..

dgn cra suapan yg baginda sslu bg...

jdi, dia pon tnya...

"siapa awk?awk bkn org yg sllu bg sy mkn"

org yg suap tue pon kata..

"org yg sslu suapkan awk....baginda, nabi s.a.w....."

tersentak org tue...

t'haru...sbb time dia kutuk nabi....nabi still bt baek kt dia..

after cita tue, dia pon peluk islam...^^

jdi ...melalui kisah nie...aku rsa malu...

klu aku di tempat nabi...mst da ngamuk2 da..

pastue....mst da mlas nk layan dia..rsa mcm x bebaloi..

tapi...nabi sgt la comel...^^

baginda still tlg org tue smpai akhir hayat nabi...

huhuhuhuhu....sabar ek hmpa2...n cuba la sma2 kita control!!