akue...

entah......
tetiba rsa nk share 1 petikan yg aku suka......
pernah aku bca dlm satu buku nie...

Rasulullah s.a.w. seringkali berdoa:

'Ya Allah, berikanlah aku rezeki dua mata yg menangis kerana takut  kepada Engkau sblm air mata ini habis.'

Ya Allah...tersentak aku....
pda ketika di awal2 cuti lepas ib exam...(mood: melagha)
aku malu sgt2 bla terbca petikan nie.....
Baginda yg mak'sum pon berdoa kpd Allah sampai mcm tue skali...
aku? x penah t'fikir smpai nk b'doa mcm tue....dah la time tue tgh fanatik tgk cita korea...
brapa byk yg telah aku menangis apabila mengenangkan Dia?
brapa byk yg telah ku pohon agar diampuni dosaku dan diterima taubatku?

malu aku....malu......seperti tarbiah yg aku dpt dlu sia2 sja....
aku seperti terkapai-kapai....x tentu arah.....

mungkin byk lg yg aku kna blajar....
blajar utk memahami dri sendiri......blajar utk mengenali Dia dgn lebih mendalam...
kadang2....aku juga berharap, seluruh jasad ku ini....
dpat digunakan dengan sebaeknya utk bertemu denganNya....
berlinangan air mata apabila terkenang dosa2 yg dilakukan...
betapa banyaknya nikmat yg diberikan oleh Allah....aku sia2kn...
aku harus bangkit semula.....mengambil pengajaran drpd msa silam.....
bkan nya merintih dan membuat b'mcm2 excuses.....yg bisa membuatkn aku ter keblakang.....IA

2nd day of ramadhan...

nothing much to say bout....

i'm just enjoying myself with my family since my siblings are coming back home!!!!
yey!!!!!
it's quite along time we hvn't meet each other since months...(i guess)

- my angah always keep busy( like a bee) with her school stuff...(her students, lawatan2...class...bla2)

- n also my ateh who is studying medicine now..... struggling for her practical time at Ipoh's hospital....so (she doesnt has time to come back home even during her short holiday...)

although both of them are busying with their own stuff.....they still have time with us during this ramadhan to break our fast together. so, 2 thumbs up for them!!!

talking bout my past ramadhan....

waktu dulu....we always do kuih muih together since there are 7 of us...(klo nk bli kuih mmg agak berapi jgk poket).so, my mom decided to make our own sweet kuih.....kuih buah melaka, cara, cucur udang, agar2, puding...n bubur....for me, our homemade kuih are the best kuih ever!!!sedap...made them by using our own recipe..hehehe..nice ah?

so maybe sampai snie ja kot...sbb if i write too many of words for today, i'm afraid that there will be no more things to write tomorrow...cow!!!!

Posa dtg lagi.....

ari ni ari 1st posa...
rasa cm sat ja.....dh stat posa blik.....
dlu wktu kcik....slalu bt2 x posa...bla mummy sruh p kedai ja...kami mst selalu ambil peluang keemasan tue utk bli lolipop n kata kt mummy yg kami lupa.
ha, cm nie...

"ala ma.........................adk lupa arinie posa,x pa la.....adk makan ja la na..."


mummy pun akan slalunya menjawab dengan redho,
"x pa....adk kecik g..."

haha....kami tau,mst hampa pon penah buat tektik cam tue an...tah...tah.....idea hampa suma mst lg gempak drpd idea kami. penah jugak kami 'menemu ramah' adik2 aku, rupa2nya...adik-adik kami jgk mmg buat gak benda cm tue.siap minum air paip lagi......lg advance...

dulu2, kami cukup x suka posa.....sbb x boleh makan.....mandi lama2....yg tahu, time posa mst asyik menghitung hari tgu hari raya, duit raya, kuih raya, pelita raya....n bla2 lgi. yg menggelikan ati lg, kami akan letk perut dekat lantai konon2nya bla perut sejuk.....kurang ckit lapar....hahah...gna tektik pschyco....tambah2 waktu terawih, sampai tetidoq tgu my granny yg asyik nk buat terawih sampai 20. kesian ...mst dok belakang surau n tgu nenek kami abis semayang.x pon....kami join da group ja....mayang dlm tidor...hahaha... (ni semua cita kecik2)

tapi....bla kami pikiaq blik....benda tu suma dlu...betapa sedeynya dlu....waktu kcik2, x pon nk  tau kenapa suma org asyik nk semayang byk2 time bulan ramadan nh...

betapa Allah sgt memberi satu 'present yg special' utk hamba-hampanya.....tapi x tau pon suma tue....asyik leka dengan mainan budak2, barbie, masak2, maen doktor2....bla2
bla dah besaq...baru la terasa nk buat ap yg penah granny buat dulu....

hemmm, i'm tryin to be a better person
reflecting my past...
so, i really.... really.... really have to be better from now on..

jadi.....sempena bulan posa nie..... cuba untuk jdikan my ramadhan is the best ramadhan ever since dlu2 punya ramadan cam tipu2 ja..... jadikan ibadat2 nie utk dekat diri pada NYA n satu present yg special jgk utk Allah sbb dh bagi mcm2 nikmat kt aku.

that's all from me today...hopefully the list will be 'longer' tomorrow....

muhasabah traffic light...hhaha

Emm...nh nk share stu story...
Pda petang sabtu yg lalu (dh cm pmbca brita da..),
berdekatan ngn tmn ****...haha...
d'rahsiakn ats fktor2 keselamat jln rya dn pilihan rya...
ak ngan mummy bru blik dri umah bru kami....
(umh bru- bkal d'cantek2kan utk menjd kediaman rasmi kami yg bru).....
dgn menaiki kereta....ak pon asyk melihat di luar jendela....
t'menung...dekat la dgn satu traffic light nh...
traffic light yg sma ja cm korg penah tgk....bla merah b'hnti....bla hijau...jalan...besa la tuh....
dgn b'muhasabah d dpn traffic light tue la ak rsa cm pastu ak agk mnjga wktu ak....(Allhmdllh)
penah x korg rsa lma gila sgt tgu kt ctue...
mst ad yg dh muka merah2...klo ijau pon mst cm hullk hogan sbb suma nk rush ke lokasi masing2...

bla tgk  lampu tue kira.....

60......59....58.......57.....56.......n bla2....

bru ak rsa lma sgt 60 saat tuh......

sblum nh.....klo ak tgk cita korea b'jam-jam pon ak x sdar...
byk nya msa ak abis...
rsa sdey sbb....masa 24/7 yg ak x pnah rsa ckup dlu sbnarnya....ckup ja utk ak.....
 but i'm not really appreciate it at all....
ak buang dia cm plastik coklat nano-nano..huhu
so, mungkin ble jdk lepas nh...klo korg tgk traffic light...
try la feel2 kn dri tue....
kta idup pon bkn nya lma...ble jdik....tup...tup...mati dh esok...
klo x da feel gak....cba2 la bka surah al-asr...
tpi....klo x feel jgk....
bt la cra ap2 pn yg korg rsa ble rsa msa nh b'harga sgt.. 
so,renung-renungkan dan slamat b'amal!!!!!